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September 2009
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I wonder every minute what God has in store for me.

I read of people who pray for their future spouses, even without knowing who they are. I think that may be the most compassionate romantic thing I have ever heard of.

And yet I am afraid to do it myself. Is it presumptous to pray for a spouse when I do not know that I'll ever have one?

Perhaps not. If it is beautiful for other people to pray, why not so also for me?

I noticed today how God is faithful: how as his presence grows bigger and bigger in my life, it bumps out of their places all those things I need to rid myself of.


I learn to listen to me and what God gave me in unexpected ways.

Current Mood: Ps. 37:4
Current Music: Your grace still amazes me.
Cat religion.

Take it from someone who's religious like a cat is: Trying to second guess a pattern in religion or life is a good way to go mad. Sure, pray for whatever you want, and don't be surprised if it works - but don't short yourself on your own merits, eh? If I were to take the Christian approach, I'd mention something about: You are what you are to some purpose, eh? The whole spouse thing baffles me, but your value as a person will likely match against someone eventually.

I dunno. The whole listening thing seems like a fantastic idea, and prayer - meh. I talk to the pattern all the time, but I don't see the point in prayer for "gimme, gimme, gimme!" Mind, I don't mean to suggest that's what your suggesting. However, nothing wrong with letting the system know what you would like. Religious perspective or me bent own, I'm always blithering at stuff, "Oh this is interesting, woo! I was missing that, and that, and that... and crap, I miss a lot of stuff, but this is cool, and hey, feel free to poke me at stuff, ok?"

Nah, I don't think it's presumptuous, and if you're following the kind loving god theory I can't imagine some all-good system being miffed about something like that.

On the other hand... I, uh... talk to cats as if they're people too, so perhaps I'm just nuts.

Er? Oh!

It's not so much praying to find someone as praying for the well-being of someone yet unknown (or unrecognized) that you trust you will meet (/recognize) someday.

I'm pretty sure the system is already quite aware of what I want. :p I earnestly hope that they are having a good giggle at me bashing into things blindly and chasing my own tail.

Incidentally, I saw a dog chase its tail in real life for the first time last weekend.

Listening is listening to the bits of myself that don't function linguistically: like when my stomach says it is still full or my legs say they would like a stretch please. They work that way for a reason. *You* know that already, I think.