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September 2009
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hurry-up-and-wait mode

Still no Dave.

Have called school in Campbell to see if AnnaMarie has his phone number. Have tried to locate number for his house in Vienna, but there are 8 people with his same last name there and I'd feel rather like a moron flipping through all of them. (I *already* hate phones quite enough.)

Hoping AM gets message & calls back. Hoping, hoping, hoping.

None of you people, with meaningful look at fellow college types happen to have it, do you?...

edit 12:20-12:36 Crap.

edit 1:17 p.
I'm not going, and I'm questioning my motives, and wondering if Anna will be horribly upset, and wondering whether I have any right to upset her, and feeling like a horrible excuse for a person. I suck. A lot.

I see the logic of all of it and I still don't understand why I do this to myself. How, yes. Why, no.

Absolved. I <3 me some Anna.