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September 2009
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thoughts and feels and thoughts and feels [userpic]

Sitting down, having composed maybe one thing my whole life, and realizing that - unbeknownst to me - I have spent the past 22 years listening very carefully, sorting and classifying by a system that I didn't even know existed, filing away scraps and bits and gems. I don't know how it happened. I could never teach. But maybe in some small way I can do.

Sitting down and learning how to play Sibelius the way I learned to speak Italian. Hearing what I've done, and learning to hear what I'm about to do.

It's only just getting good.

I really, really, really don't want to leave now.

Maybe this is why I ended up here. Maybe a long time down the road I will finally write something that is good enough and when that happens I will put inside the front cover: To Doc, with thanks for showing me what I could be.


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