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September 2009
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I really wanna take a nap. I don't think I should, but I have no compelling reason not to.


Current Mood: meebly

I took a really weird nap earlier. I've been in this hazy kind of mood today; it feels like my consciousness is hovering above my head, and I'm trying to reach up and pull it back before it floats away. So I was already in that hazy state, and I was curled up here in my armchair staring at a bowl of floating candles and listening to a CD. It was like I fell into two realms of sleep, progressively. I started to visualize images to the music with my eyes closed, and then after a while I fell asleep, but somehow through all this was still aware of the CD playing, and the candles burning. My mom came in after a while to tell me it was dinner, and she had to practically yell at me to get me to wake up. Usually I wake up when I hear the door open. Weird.


I do something not entirely unlike that anytime I fall asleep somewhere I'm not supposed to (ie, in church, during a recital, in class, etc.) Only I wake myself up when I realize whatever's been going on has changed (ie, it's time to stand and sing a hymn, the piece is over and I should clap, the professor asks me a question.)

I did in fact take said nap - I kept jerking awake because I was waiting for Tiffany to call so I could let her in and I was sure that I'd slept through the phone (which I never do) and she was pounding on the door or something. Though I was able intellectually to convince myself that it was far too early for her to be coming back from rehearsal and that I would certainly hear the phone (since I put it right next to my pillow), I couldn't convince my subconscious - and I would jerk awake again ten minutes later sure that I'd slept for hours.

Perhaps I should go to bed for real and see if I can untense.

You probably should go to bed. That's where I'm headed now. Sweet dreams!